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birthday blog update!

May 28, 2017 by Briana Herr Leave a Comment

So this is just going to be a small blog update because today is my 26th birthday!! And I just thought that I would share some thoughts that I have and hopes for the future.

I always have kind of mixed feelings about my birthday. I always get together with my family and friends. Which is great, any excuses that I have together with them I will take in a heartbeat.

But then I’m reminded that time is moving forward. even though I still feel like I’m in my early 20’s that I’m fastly approaching 30. and not that I think that I’m 30 is old but Birthdays just make me think that I should be farther ahead in life then I am. Sometimes I feel like I’m standing still.

I should have a house.

I should have a good paying job.

I should be less childish, I should be this, I should be that. Down the rabbit hole I go.

I shouldn’t watch cartoons, anime or play video games all day.

I shouldn’t spend my time writing silly things. I should give up on that hopeless dream.

Every year I do this. Even since I turned 18. I think down the lines of should be’s, shouldn’t, and what ifs. And honestly, I don’t even want half of the things that I think that I should have as an adult.

But every year I also come to the same conclusion.

Sure, I rent an house.

Sure, I work a bottom end retail job.

Sure, I maybe kind of childish.

But I have a good life, I have a great family who I would be lost without and I have 4 nephews and a niece that I adore and love with every cell in my body.

And friends that make me laugh so hard that I can’t breathe. Even when I don’t feel like laughing at all.

I do things I enjoy no matter what people think of my hobbies and I take no shit from anyone.

All of these things make up who I am. I wouldn’t be the same without one of these things.

To have the things that I think that I need as a normal adult, I would have to give up the stuff that I do have and love. which just isn’t going to fly with me.

so, what started out as a panic mode of  ‘oh god, I’m adult now, what the hell do I do now?’

has turned into a moment of reflecting on the things I am thankful to have.

Reminding myself that I don’t want a boring ‘normal.’ Adult life. And that I really love my odd and crazy roller coaster that I call a life.

And to think about the things I do want for my future. Which will still include video games and cartoons 😉

before I go, I like to thank everyone who took the time to read my rambling thoughts and sticking with me this long! I love and appreciate all of you *heart*

Until next time!

Filed Under: my life Tagged With: birthday, my life, writer life

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Hi, I’m Briana! I’m a coffee addicted night owl who likes dark, depressing books and upbeat music. I also happen to be an author. Want to read about my life in lists? Click Read More…

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