So this is just going to be a small blog update because today is my 26th birthday!! And I just thought that I would share some thoughts that I have and hopes for the future.
I always have kind of mixed feelings about my birthday. I always get together with my family and friends. Which is great, any excuses that I have together with them I will take in a heartbeat.
But then I’m reminded that time is moving forward. even though I still feel like I’m in my early 20’s that I’m fastly approaching 30. and not that I think that I’m 30 is old but Birthdays just make me think that I should be farther ahead in life then I am. Sometimes I feel like I’m standing still.
I should have a house.
I should have a good paying job.
I should be less childish, I should be this, I should be that. Down the rabbit hole I go.
I shouldn’t watch cartoons, anime or play video games all day.
I shouldn’t spend my time writing silly things. I should give up on that hopeless dream.
Every year I do this. Even since I turned 18. I think down the lines of should be’s, shouldn’t, and what ifs. And honestly, I don’t even want half of the things that I think that I should have as an adult.
But every year I also come to the same conclusion.
Sure, I rent an house.
Sure, I work a bottom end retail job.
Sure, I maybe kind of childish.
But I have a good life, I have a great family who I would be lost without and I have 4 nephews and a niece that I adore and love with every cell in my body.
And friends that make me laugh so hard that I can’t breathe. Even when I don’t feel like laughing at all.
I do things I enjoy no matter what people think of my hobbies and I take no shit from anyone.
All of these things make up who I am. I wouldn’t be the same without one of these things.
To have the things that I think that I need as a normal adult, I would have to give up the stuff that I do have and love. which just isn’t going to fly with me.
so, what started out as a panic mode of ‘oh god, I’m adult now, what the hell do I do now?’
has turned into a moment of reflecting on the things I am thankful to have.
Reminding myself that I don’t want a boring ‘normal.’ Adult life. And that I really love my odd and crazy roller coaster that I call a life.
And to think about the things I do want for my future. Which will still include video games and cartoons 😉
before I go, I like to thank everyone who took the time to read my rambling thoughts and sticking with me this long! I love and appreciate all of you *heart*
Until next time!